Blogging

I blog in my head all day long.   I compose massive postings while in the shower or folding the laundry, but for some reason they never quite make it up here to my computer.   I find myself running out of quiet time where I can sit here and type away.   Currently, the boys are at a birthday party with Tilden and I have the house to myself.   I didn't turn on the TV or go to my facebook to play some games, but came here instead.

There are a million things in my head, but only half of those are for "public" consumption.  LOL   People who see me often have started asking me "what's wrong" more than they should be...so apparently I must be "sullen" and moody.       I miss my sisters as they are spread out across the world.  
You'd think that being a few states away would make them accessible, but unless we become independently wealthy that is never going to happen.  They might as well ALL live in Spain.   I haven't seen my new little niece and my nephews are growing up without "Aunt Shell" in their everyday vocabulary.   I guess that is just our lot in life though and we can't do anything about it as we live in a very mobile society.

High school soccer season is finally over.   I don't think people realize the stress level involved for a high school coach's wife.   I like that Tilden coaches and I am proud of his accomplishments and his reputation.  I wouldn't change that in any way.   It is just a LOT of stress for me.   I become the sole parent and everything falls in my lap.   I have to plan dinner around away games, practices and meetings.   Most of the time Jake and I eat alone because we get tired of waiting.  Men become very consumed in sports and it fills up every single aspect of your life.  If we aren't at a game, we are talking about a game or reading about soccer online.   I went to all the games this year and kept score for Tilden.   Jake usually found someone to play with and I sat in the stands and tried to buffer myself from the onslaught of the "hate" talk.   Either their  kid isn't playing enough or they  feel the coach is unfair or they can do a better job.  Nothing got under my skin more than hearing our own parents make negative comments about Micah.   It was rare, but once in awhile he messed up and if he did...watch out.  The sharks circled all year long just waiting to pounce on anything he did wrong because he played over their own kid...and he was the coach's son..blah blah blah.  
What did they know?  NOTHING!!   Micah, as a lowly freshman, was voted onto the first team all District.   That is a very big deal.   Tilden didn't put him on the team either...it was done by a voting procedure with all the head coach's in our district.   He earned that himself because he is an awesome player.

He had to hear a lot of crap this year about being a Freshman and starting Varsity.   He was tough and let it roll off his back and just played his game.  I loved sitting in the stands and watching his many ninja styling's.   He loves to jump in the air and do some crazy kick.   I was highly entertained this year and amazed that he scored 7 goals as a Freshman.   That is pretty cool.

He had one "bad" game this year where I had to step in and talk to him about his attitude.  He wants to win so badly that it can cloud his vision.   He asked to come out of the game and then proceeded to pace up and down the sidelines, just furious with the team and himself for making mistakes that he found unforgivable.   Usually, he kept his cool and remained positive, but that ONE single game in the freezing rain he busted out that famous temper of his and I swear that I saw smoke billowing from his ears.    The next day we had a talk about temper tantrums and how to find that "peace" within yourself to keep calm.   I think that is something he is going to battle his entire life.   He is the most mild mannered , laid back kid in our family, but he has the worst temper.  I'm not sure how that goes together, LOL.   Luckily, he rarely lets that temper show.   Warning to the world....when Micah is mad, stay away!!  

Just in case you didn't realize it...soccer is never done and there is no off season.   We have shifted to indoor soccer already and Jacob is playing for an Academy team that has him playing in tournaments.   Micah is taking a short break as he wants his broken foot to heal completely.   I am taking him to the doctor this week to see what the prognosis might be.   We are certain that it's never healed and hoping that we can find a solution.   Micah's indoor season doesn't start until January.   He finally has time to rest that darn foot.   In the meantime he is being forced to watch Jake play and NOT enjoying the role of spectator.   Jacob is thrilled to have him on the sidelines watching him play.  They are each others best cheerleader and both think that the other one is a soccer "god".   LOL

That is my current life.   Living the role of a soccer wife/mom.  It is hectic and rushed, but you make a lot of good friends along the way and it is rewarding to watch your kids excel in something that they love so much.